Hello Audience,
So I get in front of the class for the very first time, some of these people I know while others I still have no clue who they are. The phone starts to ring and I mentally get ready. Then the spot light comes on and I hear a "Hello?" on the other line and then, my nerves overcame my whole body and I froze. I did not know what to say or what to do. I just sat on the stool and turned bright red in the face. Sometimes nerves are good, it pushes adrenaline through the veins and pushes you to succeed and become a convincing character, but then there are the kind of nerves I have. These nerves are embarrassment nerves, they are the kind that hold you back in so many terrible ways that it keeps you from being that person that the teacher or director is like, "Wow where did that come from?!"
I was always that person last year and I am supposed to be that person, but for some reason my nerves have really gotten the better of me that it is very difficult to go over the line of average. So this is something that I have to overcome, but how? Well I do not know how, but that is the great part about change, you learn how to change something negative into a positive just like the leaves changing colour in fall. The leaves just don't change their colour, they have to learn how to do it before they can, just like I have to learn how to get rid of these embarrassing nerves and make them into adrenaline nerves. This process is kind of like my own photosynthesis, I am just like a flower or a leaf trying to change its colour before it becomes winter.
Sometime change happens in the most funny places or instances, for you to Press Start on your adult life, on the life outside of the school walls and your parents' walls. Learning when and how to Press Start is something that I believe is the most dificult thing to do because you never know if it is the right time or the right place, even with the right person. That is why you have to learn how to change one step at a time.
Yours Only,
PBradford
So I get in front of the class for the very first time, some of these people I know while others I still have no clue who they are. The phone starts to ring and I mentally get ready. Then the spot light comes on and I hear a "Hello?" on the other line and then, my nerves overcame my whole body and I froze. I did not know what to say or what to do. I just sat on the stool and turned bright red in the face. Sometimes nerves are good, it pushes adrenaline through the veins and pushes you to succeed and become a convincing character, but then there are the kind of nerves I have. These nerves are embarrassment nerves, they are the kind that hold you back in so many terrible ways that it keeps you from being that person that the teacher or director is like, "Wow where did that come from?!"
I was always that person last year and I am supposed to be that person, but for some reason my nerves have really gotten the better of me that it is very difficult to go over the line of average. So this is something that I have to overcome, but how? Well I do not know how, but that is the great part about change, you learn how to change something negative into a positive just like the leaves changing colour in fall. The leaves just don't change their colour, they have to learn how to do it before they can, just like I have to learn how to get rid of these embarrassing nerves and make them into adrenaline nerves. This process is kind of like my own photosynthesis, I am just like a flower or a leaf trying to change its colour before it becomes winter.
Sometime change happens in the most funny places or instances, for you to Press Start on your adult life, on the life outside of the school walls and your parents' walls. Learning when and how to Press Start is something that I believe is the most dificult thing to do because you never know if it is the right time or the right place, even with the right person. That is why you have to learn how to change one step at a time.
Yours Only,
PBradford
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